3/1/25

First day back to work. I’m sitting in the same spot when I got the phone call and found out she was (probably) gone. My stomach feels tight but otherwise nothing. No tears. A little numb.

Jim, Deb, and Jess came up today to help with some things around the house. We went out to dinner at Baby Gold. Sitting there having a very normal-feeling extended family dinner, our first since all the events of the funeral weekend, made me deeply sad. To be having our family banter, and her not being there, and knowing she will never be there again, taking part, in the mix, saying things that made us laugh or spark conversation or whatever. The incompleteness of our family.